They Were Best Friends for Over a Decade—Then One Shocking Moment Changed Everything
I have since gone through an underage drinking phase and a h*e phase, both of which I have gotten over entirely. I will probably be on anti-anxiety medication for the rest of my life, but I have since found religion and made peace with myself over what happened. I have forgiven N, and I think the final part of that was writing out the main details and posting. So thank you.
And that’s what happens when a nice girl likes a nice guy. They’re both immature and pretty terrible. But things aren’t all bad. That friend I mentioned that I keep up with: We’ve been dating for over a year now, and we told each other that we love one another for the first time just last week.
My “best friend” all through high school always had some weird f*****t-y tendencies through the time I knew him. Literally couldn’t admit he was wrong about anything, blindly and loyalty supported the US government and police, and thought that weed was the most evil thing in the world. At one point, he told me, knowing that me and my parents had all tried weed, that anyone who had ever smoked pot should be locked up for their whole lives to “protect them”.
The final straw was after I went to him after my first s*****e attempt. He didn’t have any emotional response to his close friend of many years telling him that they’d tried to k**l themselves. All he did was ask if I had smoked within a month of the attempt. When I said yes, he told me that that was why and refused to discuss the topic further. I wasn’t sure how to feel about it that day, but we didn’t really speak again (our families used to be so close that they were practically intertwined, so this was a pretty big deal). I messaged him a month or two ago during a bad depressive episode, after not having spoken in years, and he actually apologized, for the first time since I met him. We still aren’t friends, but I’m glad that I don’t feel the same animosity anymore.
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